The Blahness of the Season

I’m bored. It’s not the type of bored where you don’t have anything to do because you’ve finished everything you want to. I’m just bored. I’ve got stuff to do. I have TV shows to watch. I have friends to call. I have shopping to do. I just don’t want to do any of those things. Maybe I’m bored of my life. Maybe I need a change. Not an easy thing to do. I’m relatively happy with the job I have. I’m relatively happy with being back in Waterloo.
Maybe it’s due to my emotional blahness. It seems to me that there are only two emotions I feel lately. Happiness and sadness. There isn’t anything in between. Sometimes I feel that I am emotionally dead. Sometimes I feel like there are emotions that want to break through and surface but I can’t be bothered with them so they sulk back into the dark corner they came from. I wasn’t like this a year or two ago. Things happened which changed me and drained the emotion out of me.
I realize I’m probably over-reacting. I probably still outwardly convey different emotions to people. I just don’t know.

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