I’m bored. It’s not the type of bored where you don’t have anything to do because you’ve finished everything you want to. I’m just bored. I’ve got stuff to do. I have TV shows to watch. I have friends to call. I have shopping to do. I just don’t want to do any of those things. Maybe I’m bored of my life. Maybe I need a change. Not an easy thing to do. I’m relatively happy with the job I have. I’m relatively happy with being back in Waterloo.
Maybe it’s due to my emotional blahness. It seems to me that there are only two emotions I feel lately. Happiness and sadness. There isn’t anything in between. Sometimes I feel that I am emotionally dead. Sometimes I feel like there are emotions that want to break through and surface but I can’t be bothered with them so they sulk back into the dark corner they came from. I wasn’t like this a year or two ago. Things happened which changed me and drained the emotion out of me.
I realize I’m probably over-reacting. I probably still outwardly convey different emotions to people. I just don’t know.